LOVE WINS x

Another year is drawing to and end, who can believe it’s almost 2023? It seems like a work of science fiction, by now we should be in floating cars in a world run by robots.

This year I have been loved and looked after by my family and closest friends, old and new. I’ve seen some amazing places. I’ve taken some enormous, life changing risks and I’m still waiting to see if they will play out. I am so grateful for all of it, even when it hurts. 

We’ve all seen the posts reminding us that we never know what someone else is going through. This year has really shown me the meaning of that - not just in my own life, but to so many others. 

I have met people that have suffered unimaginable loss and heartache.  Sons who lost their mother too soon. A wife whose husband betrayed them in ways I can’t explain. A brother who misses their sister so terribly that sometimes they can’t find the words. A family home burnt to the ground. An impossibly strong, powerhouse woman, who is writing letters to their children for when they grow older, because they’ve been given less than a year to live. 

So why then, do we find ourselves panicking over gifts, and what to cook, or what to wear to the office Christmas do? Why do we get so wrapped up in things that really shouldn’t matter?

Last year I cared so much about what we would eat for Christmas dinner, the amount of gifts under the tree. Everything had to be perfect. This year, honestly, I couldn’t care less. As long as I get to wake up with my little man on Christmas Day and see that awe and wonder in his eyes, that’s all I care about.  

In honesty, I don’t really know what I’m trying to say. I guess - life is sh*t sometimes, isn’t it? It can HURT. But, it’s also beautiful. There are so many wonderful things about life, if we can just remember to take our head out of our backsides to find them.

In 2023 I want to be grateful. I want gratitude to become such a part of my world that I can see the positives in everything. Being negative and surrounded by drama is so exhausting! And I finally realise, it’s also a choice. 

I will look at people with softer eyes. A kinder heart. I will try not to judge. I will kindly draw a circle around myself if I need to, but where I can I will be kind, and choose love. 

Not just to others, but to myself. I must remember to be kind, not to doubt, or think I’m too fat, too silly, too much. 

I guess I could have just said, don’t worry about stupid stuff this Christmas. Just be grateful for what you’ve got, and feel the love. 

Merry Christmas everyone x